Talking to myself .... ay kalam 6

• Do i dare ... to look and stare 
• At your beauty ... it's like a flare
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• Do i dare ... to again share 
• The real me .. hoping you'll care 
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• Do i dare ... walk down that road 
• Either a dream .. or a the worst nightmare 
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• Do i dare ... make you my air 
• Hand you my heart ... to repair 
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• Do i dare ... hope life is fair 
• And will i bear .. another dispair 
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• All i know ... that you and me 
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• Were never ... meant to be 
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• Can i dare the destiny ?? 
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• With all this said ... i stopped thinking ahead 
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• Remembered my past ... when i dropped dead  
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• And how i was ... a complete airhead 
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• Thinking that ... i'll have a happy end 
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• And look to where ... all that has led 
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• A thousand piece of my heart was spread 
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• All over the place ... some in outer space 
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• It will never be the same again ... that i'm not amazed 
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• I dunno what to say ... but at the end of the day 
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• i realize the fact that i ... can not stand another decay 
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• And that me and you are a "no way" 
• We'll just never be able to sway 
• Cause you will never stay 
• Just another sad broadway 
• So i won't wait for your betray 
• I'll back off and walk away 
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• We're not meant to be 
• I'll embrace that destiny 
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• My white flag raised up high 
• With you .. maybe .. i could  fly 
• But with you ... i could also die 
• That is why ... i will never try 
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• I lock my tears ... closing my eye 
• My heart shouting ... farewell good bye 

هطل في القهوة

• Sitting in a so called cafe ...... heya aslan ahwa 
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• All around me people yelling shouting and laughing .... 2a3deen yel3abo domana 
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• I quit smoking , but ironicly .....bashrab makanha shehsa 
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• The way things are going ... we're all .... ray7een fe dahya 
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• And i can't drink my coffee ... mafeesh 2ahwa mn 3'er segara 
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• And it's either we're inside talking , making fun out of our ... waksa 
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• Or we're sitting outside staring at every single passing by ... mozza 
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• Life seems so dark .. ah ya 7ezni yamma 
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• Lost .. waiting to be rescued ... da7na galna shalal b zemma

empty chapter ....

• it feels so bad when you wake up on your bed

• the feeling of being alive & yet feeling so dead

• it feels so heavy you cant even lift your head

• its hard to get up , stand up .... simply cause your fed up

• you look around and it feels like everything in life is just a set up

• a lying corpse in the dark waiting for the glimse of light

• the bright dawn that can end the night

• the final battle that can end the fight

• but here's a fact ... sight

• i no longer have a hand that reach out for me when im down

• i no longer have a shoulder that i can actualy lean upon

• i no longer have someone that i can truely rely on

• i no longer have a rock that i hang to before i drown

• i no longer can stand waiting for something that is gone

• i no longer can feel my feelings , when all your feelings are .... none

• i no longer have the time to regret all what has been and done

• but it took me a while to realise all that

• that no one is coming , nathing is coming back

• so its abut time to give life onother chance

• this time though im gonna use my common sense

• and no more this " all for one and one for all " crap

• more like " one for one , and no one else but one " crap

• yup , im abut to do the " one hand " clap 
•  im abut to do the " one finger " snap

• guess what im trying to say is " life goes on "

• and this time im ready to face it all alone

• with no one around , not even a home

• this chapter has ended

• a new one begin

• im just sorry for having five empty pages in between ................

PainKillers .....

• ok .... so ......here's a funny thing ....

• We do some stuff in life like ,,,, talk to a friend , hang out , party , draw , write , sports and  so on ... whatever 

• these stuff can be considered as painkillers ... and our lives are the body in pain that needs those painkillers ..... and ofcourse  the pain referes to whatever problems we face , or should i say constant problems ??

• you know they used to say life is ups and downs .... i guess now a days its more like .... life is downs , and more downs =) ... .

• Anyways taking all this aside , i mentioned there's a funny thing abut all this .....

•  so we have a body = life ... we have painkillers = some stuff we do .. we have pain = problems .. 

• ok ummm .... now the funny thing is .... ...

• The fact that we take the pain killers .......
• So we no longer feel the pain ...... .
• But then we realise that the pain is still there even though we cant feel it .... .
• And then it hurts to just know that it exist O_o .... .
• And then we'r back to feeling pain ,,,, just a diffirent kind of it O.o .....

• yup ,  i lied ... aint funny ... just ironic -.- 

closer and closer ;) ....

• walking in the dark ....
• all alone ... 
• shuttered , broken , sinking in my own tears ..... 
• and then .....out of no where ..... 
• you rise up from the dark ....
• a glimse of light ... getting closer , and closer , and closer ... 
• you'r now so close to me ... 
• i see you and smile ... almost dancing at your sight .... 
• feeling your warmth all over me ... 
• i reach out my hand ... i call out your name ... 
• you'r getting closer .... 
• all my dark days are over now .... 
• i finaly found you ... 
• closer and closer ... 
• its the day i've been waiting for all my life .... 
• you'r almost here now ... 
• i can almost touch your face .... i ....  , i ...... 

• O_o ... and she just passed me by  and continued walking O_o ..... howa fe eh xD 

•  eh el ba3ta el gaaz de xD ... kammel ya 3m mashy gatak neela  xD 

بلطجي ... أي كلام 3

• كان في مره واحد لقى نفسه بالعافيه عايش ...
• أكله مجرد حته عيش مش كنافه و قطايف ...
• منظره وسخ و قذر , أو بمعنى أصح بائس ...
• ان حد يبوصله نظره احترام دا شيء فاكس ...
• محدش راضي يساعده لا في جوامع ولا في كنائس ..
• غضب شويه , زعل شويه , عيط لمده أيام ..
• بعدها قام و فاق , قال اللي كان كان ... 
• أنا لازم اتحرك و اتغير , لازم ابص لقدام ... 
• بص لنفسه و فكر , ايه اللي مفرقه عن ألوف .. ؟
• بعد فتره عرف الحل , الحل هو الفلوس .. 
• جرب يشتغل مره و اتنين , تلاته و اربعه .. 
• اكتشف ان حوار "الشغل مش عيب" دي حاجه أوباحه ..
• اتبهدل طلع عينه ... كل يوم إهانه  ..
• جه اليوم اللي زهق فيه من كل حاجه في الحياه .. 
• ملقاش حاجه حلوه في مقابل كل شقاه .. 
• نفس النظره الواطيه المره ..... نفس المعامله الوسخه ... 
• ماشي في يوم فاقد الأمل ...... مش طايق حياته , لا يحتمل 
• لقى قدامه الشاب الكيكو 
• راكن البورش مشغل تيمو 
• جيبه هيطق من كتر فلوسه 
• فجأه انفجرت فيه الغريزه 
• فجأه بقى شايف قدامه فريسه 
• دور في جيبه لقى سكينه 
• ضرب فريسته ضربه عنيفه 
• و طلع يجري و معاه الغنيمه 
• و فجأه اتحسب واحد من البلطجيه 
• بس يا تارا مين فيهم الضحية ؟؟؟  

اي كلام 2

• سواد كحل عنيكي كان مالي حياتي ألوان .. 
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• كلام كان لازم أقوله قبل فوات الآوان ..
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• بحبك النهارده أكتر من أيام زمان .. 
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• بحبك وانتا مستكتر عليا بنص جنيه لبان .. 
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• لو كنت ألف ليله , انتي شهرزاد ..
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• دا انتي كنافة مانجا في فاترينة حلويات...

أي كلام

• كلام القلب معتش ليه لازمه ... 
• لازم تحوير و اديكي بالجزمه ...
• لما أكلمك متروديش عليا ...
• أنفضلك , تديني بدل الميسد ميه ... 
• جينا لزمن الحب فيه عيب ... 
• ضعف و ذل و جو كئيب ... 
• فين الورده , فين الضحكه , فين القعده تحت الشجره ... 
• فين الهمسه , فين اللمسه , فين البوسه تحت المطره ... 
• كله بشكله و عربيته .. كله بلبسه و شعره و لونه ...
• أجيبلك من الآخر الملخص المفيد .. 
• طول ما انتا تافه , تبقى بيس دا شيء أكيد ... 
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